I believe everyone around you (except for your mom and friends) saying that it’s stupid/a bad idea is making you believe that this tattoo is a mistake, increasing your anxiety. talking with a doctor or other health care professionals can possibly help you with dealing with the anxiety of having this grim reaper on you. it’s one thing if the tattoo sucks and you want to get it removed, it’s another thing that this tattoo is giving you panic and anxiety. Please get help with a mental health professional. I wished I had because now I feel like fate was telling me not to and I ignored it! I’d been offered to go on holiday at the time of my tattoo, and I didn’t want to cancel my appointment to go. I just wished I’d listened to my gut rather than my heart. But I’m soft skinned, and I don’t want anyone to think I’m evil or something. I constantly keep bursting into tears.Įveryone gives the advice to “ignore others and f*ck them”. I just can’t cope with the feelings of anxiety it’s giving me. I’d need to work overtime for months and months to be able to afford it and I’m scared of scarring. I’ve booked in for a removal consultation in July but both my mum and closest friend are trying to talk me out of it, because to them it’s a nice tattoo and it’s not offensive in the slightest. I don’t want to wear a dress to work parties. I feel in need to change the clothes I wear now to keep myself covered, even throughout the summer. It’s right on my shin so everyone can see it if I wear a skirt or dress. Im thinking to myself right now “what if I’ve cursed myself with bad luck, what if I’ve given my family bad luck, what if people think it’s ugly or manly, what if they think I’m a satanist or it’s got some negative gang connotations or something I don’t know about”. With my anxiety I tend to have intrusive thoughts. I very much struggle to accept any change so it’s a reminder that change is inevitable and good! And I just like the artwork too! But none of my friends can see anything except the literal meaning of death. It symbolises endings and new beginnings. In tarot the death card doesn’t meant the person is going to die. Otherwise, to me the meanings are positive. I’m a nurse who’s had experiences with death and have great respect for people going through the hardest time of their lives. To me the tattoo doesn’t have a negative meaning. I don’t want to wear shorts or a dress in summer now I’ve showed my other friends who are like “if you like it you like it!” I’m scare to wear it in public incase someone’s offended by it. My female best friend is very feminine and wouldn’t like it so I’m hesitant to show her. I feel like I’ve made myself uglier, I feel there are certain people in my life that I can’t show my leg to like my dad, because he wasn’t a fan of my previous tattoos. I loved it but now reality has set in.įor a week I feel like I’ve been living in a constant state of anxiety. Then I was like “yeh, I really like this” and went ahead with it. I was still having a panic until I saw the stencil go on my leg. A week before the tattoo I was still having doubts purely because I was so scared what others would think. They told me that I shouldn’t listen to anyone else as this is my tattoo and if I wanted it, I should get it. This swayed me and I told my best friend and my mum that I was having doubts. I was met with a grimace and “why would you get that, I have a tattoo of a butterfly?” I’m a woman so I understand if it doesn’t fit the typical feminine tattoo ideas. However, when I had told people in work (I’m a nurse) previous to getting the tattoo, their reactions were lacklustre. There’s absolutely nothing with their artistic ability, that’s obviously why I got a tattoo from them ! I got it from an artist that specialises in this kind of folklore, historical and mythological artwork. To me it’s not a masculine or feminine drawing. It’s lighthearted, nice, and not drawn in a grotesque or intimidating manner. Last week I got a tattoo of a happy grim reaper.
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